Loki, consider the life of a hermit. Perhaps in the wilds of the wilderness you will gaze upon a vision in the sky. For though you know you're purpose and mission, you haven't the slightest idea how to get there.
A will can only go so far, before the way becomes impossible.
Then again, if anything is to be gained from this, it's that you wont listen to this advice anyways.
I pity those who've tried to help you:
You are now a penitent prophet, seeking the path of enlightenment and redemption. Follow the path laid by those before you, that you may gleam from their lives the steps to succeed in yours.