Well, it seems you have put quite a bit of thought into all of this JB. As many of us have seen (and many more, not) these past years have been quite tumultuous. Within the world of CN, there have been major fiasco's and triumphs. Undoubtedly it has been a trying time for quite a few. Understandably emotions often get mixed in with something that is given so much time and effort. It is hard to deny those things when your work is trampled upon or questioned. Though it didn't seem that your break(s) helped much, or maybe it did. I can only extend my best wishes for whatever path you choose in the future, as a former comrade in arms, co-conspirator and I believe an enemy on the other side.
Your words were well said, now may you keep true to not just them, but onto yourself. Best of luck, mate.