Here, I got you a bucket for your tears, this is high quality carpet after all.
You talk a big game about wanting to be honourable and such? Then shut the hell up, stop acting like a whiny child, and get in the bed you made for yourself. Thank us for the fight we're going to bring you with all the casualties and nukes stats or whatever the kids love these days. Then maybe, just maybe someone will give you the honour and respect you are looking for.