Seek and ye shall find.
I sought, and I found. My only regret is not having started earlier,
but every operator must first be immersed in the despair, driven to the
point of breaking, like a piece of work upon the anvil of life that must
be struck again and again by the hammer of reality until its shape is
bent into usefulness, only until one has been dunked and emerged from
difficulty, can they begin to realize that life is a strategy to be
devised, a one shot experience, a turbulent sea that must be navigated,
and the brief periods of respite greatly cherished. On which the
conscious obsesses, the subconscious creates.