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Getting two towels from the hanger next to the spring, Suiko threw one to Shilon, and put the other around herself. This was going to be a long talk, and she really didn't want to have her skin shriveled up because of it.

She settled back into the pool.

"Please begin, Shilon. I really want to know about you."

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Shilon...Margrave...he ignored the wetness and the discomfort, taking the towel with a nod of thanks.

"What would you have me tell you, Suiko? that I abandoned my responsibility...that I faked my own death....that I gave everything I had all for the love of a woman who vanished from my eyes? There is much pain in my story, Suiko....a great deal of pain. Do you really want to hear such an awful tale?"

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Shilon nodded....feeling himself fall back into himself...his old memories...his old life...

"The first thing you should know is that my name IS Shilon. In the ancient tradition of the People, the Marchar, one takes a "face name" to show the world...and a "soul name", a personal name, something that captures themselves and only them. Written with the English characters, my name is appropriately spelled "Shylon Khindon" (Spelled as its pronounced) but with the modern rule we hold for translation it is simply "Shilon Khendon". You were only the second person to learn my first name, which is my..."soul name". The first was a great lord of your people who led them through the troubles and was the heart of the Fuyo-clann revolution. Not even the Ryumu Sumeragi knew it." He shook his head, that name bringing a whole new welling of pain to his heart.

"translations are...difficult, to the modern tongue. The meanings of the Marchar language are much deeper, much more powerful...but my name translated roughly means this. "The Lone Wolf Who Cries" or "The Cry Of The Lone Wolf". It is said that our soul names are prophetic of our lives...in my case, this indeed has been true. I...trusted you with this name of mine for my own reasons. At first I had thought it was because I abandoned the traditions...but I found myself unable to tell anyone else; you will notice no one else called me Shilon in your hearing."

"The next thing....is hard to say...she was the heart of me. Too much feels gone, incomplete...Akeiko, daughter of the Sun, the Ryumu Sumeragi...I loved her with a passion I cannot fully impress upon you. I still see those ruby eyes in my dreams...yet I was denied her. She vanished some time ago...I hope into the arms of one she loved. I searched the world for her...I can truly say if she is still living, she is beyond my reach. I surrendered my heart to her for the first time in....years and years...since the death of my first wife...and it came to nothing, dust passing into the wind in my hands. I left my country behind...my crown, my titles...my people...I sacrificed all that I had, and was rewarded with emptiness, an emptiness that has engulfed me completely.

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“Trusted..... I still find it surprising why he had trusted me fron when we first met, but that's not the main point right now.....”

Readjusting her position, she asked softly.

“I've always wondered why Khendon loved the Ryumu Sumeragi. The only versions of the rumors I know have him being captivated by her beauty, and eventually manipulated. But those stories always seemed to be nothing more than splatterings of old myths onto a current situation.

Something just didn't add up, when we know that the Sumeragi was never the one to have any interest in men, and the Margrave was always the incarnation of virtue. Could you tell me the why behind it?”

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Khendon shook his head. "Why do we love, Suiko? I can tell you what drew me to her; what made her attractive to me...but what made me fall in love with her, sacrifice everything I ever had dreamed of...just for the chance to get her...Well, that's abit more difficult for even me to fathom. First off, she was beautiful, in the way that jade is beautiful; she was human and yet...not human. As the Mother Of The Nation, she was a goddess, worshiped and feared; as a woman she was inexperienced and cold, very difficult to appeal to some basic human emotions. But buried under the walls of protocol and court intrigue was a heart with passions so deep that it move the nation; a love so restrained by her status that it had built, almost untapped, for years and years. I still don't know if she was frightened of it, or merely wary; our days in Auckland together were painfully short. And then by the time I found a trace of her, after the fall of my country...well, by that time it was too late; she had slipped out of my hands. She was a woman as you are; Suiko, with her own loves, her own desires. There was a part of her I couldn't reach; I thought I would with time...but she slipped out of my hands."

"She took my heart, though she'll never know it. I yearned for her, but was never with her...and all that I shall ever possess of her is now a memory in my mind, and an absence in my chest, where love denied has taken its place. Though I gave all that the fates could ask for; I was still denied her, and though I have calmed since I discovered she was gone forever, still the anger burns, still the sadness sweeps across me, still the unfairness of it all strikes me. How can I be whole, without my heart? How can I ever value or love again, when it is gone? She took it...and now it is forever in her hands, lost to me for the rest of time."

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She wasn't ready for the deep feelings that Shilon was slowly pouring out. She was, after all, just an unsophisticated country girl who led a simple life. But she would try.

"But..... isn't love supposed to also be unlimited? I mean, I know I've never loved before, but..... As long as your alive, can't there always be another to take your emptiness?"

OOC: Sorry Margrave for the bad reply, I'm not particular in a great mood atm......

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"You have not yet loved; so you do not yet understand the pains of love, Suiko, how they remain, how they fester when hope is lost, how when you give everything you ever loved or wanted just so you could be with the person you love...and then you are denied them....how does someone recover from that? How do the wounds heal when there is no one to love and no hope for tomorrow? When you have carved a place inside your heart to fit that person you love, how do you then put someone else in that place you carved out?"

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