emily

Erm yeah originally I was accused of spying, I was not given a trial, but I think by now most people recognise that, since I'd onnly just left, i didn't see anyhting I shouldn't have and was not acting for another alliance etc. I dispute that simple accessing a forum automatically amounts to spying. MHA disagree, and so I got ZId. I don't agree with it but it's done now so no point trawling through it. But ZI was not enough for WCR, he wanted more, he said that both via PM to me, and on MHA forums. IIRC the quote was "I don't want her to think this is over" - though with sentance completed there was no reason why it should not be. A month later Jerdge made contact with me, I put him on block so he came to my new alliance and delivers what could only be called a further court judgement. This was a complete shock as I had moved on and in anycase had not been presnet at any trial to defend myself. this sentance stated among other things, i should be baneed from #MHA for 3 months. Hoever after 5 months, the triumverate just decided to extend it. when i asked why, they got increadibly angry with me, and/or refused to talk to me, leading to this silly situaton we have now. I am on thier AA atm, doing no harm, actually enjoying wars etc, I'm ready to move onto a new alliance and get back into the game properly, and am on speaking terms with all of MHA bar the threee that have posted in this thread. But I refuse to do that with this situation still hanging over my head. I really don't see why any alliance would continue to hate on someone who does nothign but continually ask them to stop...

[quote name='Thorgrum' date='17 February 2010 - 12:40 PM' timestamp='1266410436' post='2187456'] I understand completely, I find emily entertaining [OOC] the main reason I play cybernations[OOC] her ability to pop up every other month or so with the same situation, one in which she has absolute control over but chooses not to excersise it is interesting, mildly. That and the brave souls who engage her and perpetuate the cycle. This could all go away in a matter of weeks, its really very simple. [/quote] I could get WCR to stop his hate campaign at any time if... I stop playing, or shut up complaining about his actions - yes your right but why should I? He is a nasty malicious bully who is abusing his position within MHA to exact his revenge. All MHA have to do is say, ok if it bothers you that much how about we have a fresh start. But WCR insists they don't. I can and have accessed both IRC and their forums at any time I chose. So any ban is purely theoretical. MHA have absolutely nothing to lose from allowing me in their IRC channel, yet they continue to allow these scenes to escalate .... why? This all should have been over and done with one I reached ZI. Nowhere else has MHA been like this with one individual, who clearly acted with no mailice. I'm not leaving the game, and I'm not gonna shut up, It used to be argued I hated MHA, now it is clear that MHA hates me is closer to the truth. They could stop this ANYTIME THEY WANTED, I'd even negotiate and give ground etc... But they chose not to. They chose this.

OK - Well since the mods appear to think OOC insults are fne as long as they're properly tagged I may as well say what I'm really thinking: Jerdge [OOC] you are nobodies friend, you say whatever suits the situation you are in, to the point of helping me get an MHA mask, yet turning completely spiteful once your part was made clear. To OOC attack me continually on the forums whislt at the same time claiming to be my friend on IRC shows what a false person you truely are. You also released informaiton about my "instability" firstly to all of MHA via their forums, and then, in or about 14th September in a post on OWF. Thereby singling me out as a target for continous low level bullying and ridicule, and have continued to allude to it at various points since then. You are not gov, yet you repeatedly make claims on their behalf without checking first, in fact 2 or three of these MHA posts have been as a direct consequence of YOUR misinformation, to the point where I wonder if you are deliberatly trying to manipulate both myself and your goverment into creating them.[/OOC] WCR [OOC] I am disgusted with your repeated "get help" comments. My managed illness will no more benefit from therapy than would your **********ity. What I would benefit from, is less general biggotry especialy since, as you chose to remain in the closet, you are clearly well aware of how constant discrimination for something you cannot control must feel. You are not representative of MHA, their gov continually remind me of that, and your post above, clearly demonstrates you personally are the one driving this hate campaign because you are upset that I left MHA without telling you first. [/OOC] All the trainee psychologists out there: [OOC] There are two ways I can deal with this bullying, my way, which many of you find annoying, or alternatively, since I......... Edit: You can't hadle the nastry truth of the situations.[/OOC]

Wimp! I haven't surrendered!

Unfortunately, you are not MHA gov.

[quote name='Thorgrum' date='15 February 2010 - 09:42 PM' timestamp='1266270148' post='2183489'] That you find it entertaining that people continue to give you attention even though when doing so they tell you to get a life etc? I know, I get it. Its amusing. It will be a sad day when they actually catch on and get that the only way you will ever go away is when they ignore you completely, of course most of them are way to smart for that. Its always a pleasure thought emily I hope you never go away dear. [/quote] i don't know you but i'm pissed and love you!

erm.... i get a lot out of CN and by that (MHA) yes it's true. I spend too much time on line... so i'm different to you how? jack diorno... I'd love to get to know you better, same with WCR, tbh i never really spoke to either of you. Other than that.. yeah i've got a bee in my bonnet, i won't let it go, i'm a bit unbalanced..... nothing too unusual, i do laugh at my posts too you know. We're all in this game together, i can be a great enemy, i can be an even beter friend, get me drunk and i do a great combo of both. what was my point again...?

yeah I do listen to the attention whore argument... i am a human being with feelings things with mha are ... really bad, i cry out, ..... i want to peace out... but not by dissapearing if i need to whinge... surely that's a small price to pay to stop this nonsense...?

OK .... Once again for those who don't seem to see the actual words I type. The new guys are great, I was personal friends with each and every one of them. And no they can act like decent human beings if they want to. Their only failure so far is not putting people like WCR and Scutter out where they belong. Peace out with MHA... I'm fighting wars for them and giving them aid, tell them i love them, and constantly ask them to make up. Even a thread entilteld unconditional love, is responded to by saying I hate MHA? These guys just don't seem to understand how anyone could not be as hateful as they are. (I even see that someone (Scutterbug - see posts)sees me saying I love MHA as hateful) They still treat me like this, ban me from IRC, ban me from their forums, claim I am not allowed to contact ANY medmber privately (that's a scutter and WCR one) threaten alliances that accept me as a member etc etc. It's not me that is continuing this feud. I would be best frieds with them by tea time if they actually wanted it.

Congrats guys, if anyone deserves this you do. You secrety helped me keep MHA econ department afloat when trying to set up your own alliance and ignored all the flack MHA were giving you. When everything was !@#$%* in my world you were the ones that were there for me, and when I was !@#$ to you, you were still there! /o OSA - unconditional love ftw!

Stonewall - in so many ways I agree with you. My fight (and it is just a silly fight, not hate) is not with the MHA you and i knew, but with those who are pulling the strings just now... be they official gov or "advisors". Wilst the gerneral populace, it could be argued are responsible for electing these people, or at least being swayed by the likes of scutter and WCR, I just can't bring myself to abandon so many other old and dear friends. Allbeit the more astute of them such as kowalski, bernardo, shamshir, rikki, farmer john have each seen the light and left. I just can't understand how some dear and cherished old friends, who I know were good people, could behave like this...

Sometimes, you just meet someone/thing that you just love, don't know why, don't know how. It tears you up inside, treats you like dirt ans sleeps with yur best friend, but no matter what, you don't have it in you to stop loving them. It makes no sense, yet still it endures, you try to explain, they call you a liar or think your nuts. You don't care, it is what it is and nothing will stop it. So words don't work anymore, perhaps [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_wars.asp?search=319459&Extended=1"]actions [/url] [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_aid.asp?search=319459&Extended=1"]do?[/url] idk its just that nations that run to [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_wars.asp?search=47377&Extended=1"]peace mode [/url] then get younger nations to counter attack, seem a bit [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_wars.asp?search=318629&Extended=1"]two faced[/url] to me. as do the ones that are not [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_wars.asp?search=225981&Extended=1"]fighting [/url]or giving out ANY [url="http://www.cybernations.net/search_aid.asp?search=225981&Extended=1"]aid.[/url] or maybe true love friendship/love means something else around here?

You know what this is outrageous, the way those ozzies treat their sheep! I think I should start a justice for sheep campaign!

why are you in peace mode? I've fought more of your enemies than you have? Now that's an injustice!

Never been that possesive about my nation, i did try rerolling but i just couldn't hack not having my own name so rerolled back as soon as I could.

Scutter, I love you to bits. IC and most probably OOC too. I do not hate MHA or anyone in it. I've always said that. Yes i'm upset at you [MHA], but it is NOT the same thing as hate. I am really worried about your reaction to the facebook thing. That message was sent to basically anyone I'd ever emailed, but even then, I actually like you, and would see no reason not to send it. I am tempted to laugh it off. But if you are upset then by definition it's serious. Perhaps you come come to me and chat about it privately? If you feel to insecure to do that, I am sure any of your or my friends could act as intermediaries... Snaggs, pudge, trist, noli even jadoo.... Last thing I'd ever want to do is upset such a good old friend of mine.... [and yes I do mean that}

Hope i don't die from scabby knees! Actaully I haven't been ill or complained about being ill for a while now! But I still do get abuse completely out of the blue. Scutterbugs tirade in #gremlins yesterday being a particularly fine example. Otherthan that not much to report. Works boring, CNs all Quiet, MHA-Emily relations at defcon 3....

So really what I must do is shut up and reroll. Unfortunately, though this is a game, life isn't always like that. I fail to see how giving CONSTANT examples of people being mean to me for no reason other than my perceived illness can be anything but relevant. Clearly the ill/different deserve to be attacked? You could even say "she's asking for it - eh?"

Well given that I don't even know these people and they are going out of thieir way to attack me at times when say I am happily chatting away about completely unrelated subjects I would beg to differ....

I fell over and skinned both my knees today. It REALLY hurt!!!! lol @ the i'm so mature because i'm 20 comment. Come back in 15 years after years in and out of psychiatric hospitals seeing friends kill themselves, die of their medication, or be murdered because of biggoted attitudes like your own and then I may listen. i get the feeling from posts her the CN community is saying act weak and people will make you a victim. YOU should change/reroll. We as a community will not sanction the biggots who are bullying you. However, there is another side many of you are unable to see. Thats the PMs from people saying they agree with me, or are in a similar posiiton but, are just to afraid to come out in public. It makes me so sad to see that in this day and age, people [including some of YOUR closest friends] are still afraid to admit to even a basic depression for fear they will be treated like.... me.

OK i keep seeing a little button inviting me to skype people!?! I'm really not that kind of girl. Honest! They all seem to be in the same country as me. Is this a new feature that's not fully installed? I'm pretty sure I never gave you my number, not that getting random CNers calling me wouldn't be funny, infact it could seriously enhance the game when I take the netbook to the pub again but..... ?

What do they enjoy, hearing about how much they've upset another human being? Most people who actually know me find me quite interesting and fun. infact these "MHA" posts are the only situation that illicits this extreme distressed reaction. Only theyre not even about MHA anymore, because they are friends enough to know when to stop. Unfortunaltely others around here ae not.

Well I would not technically meet the criteria for psychatric diagnosis anymore. I do however, still meet the criteria for being continually harrassed and discriminated against.

I never asked you to tiptoe, just to stop being malicious because of an incurable disorder. I have never spoke to you. You do not know me. Yet you took it upon yourself to ban me from your own channel. Guess what? It didn't make me shut up or go away! If that is what you want. Try a different approach?