So today I came to the decision to disband Carthage after 250 days. It was a tough decision but the right one. I know, that's two failed alliances now. I'm sure I'll get flak over it but at some point I have to think of someone other than myself. I worked hard at recruitment. Spent just so many hours on helping new nations because I knew I had to do it on my own. I started my alliance with just myself and literally no one else. It took a toll. I found that doing everything yourself, although rewarding, is not possible for a person who has been as inactive as I have been of late.
After the ODN war I worked hard on trying to get everyone active and on IRC. When that didn't work I tried recruitment and realized that I tried to do everything myself again except for the fact I honestly don't have the time for it anymore. And I've learned that no matter how hard I work on something alone, if you don't have others to help you along the way you're simply just not going to have enough to make it. I thought Carthage was a good alliance, we didn't do much but I thought the theme was cool and something original. However I knew that I simply couldn't invest too much into it and had to let it go like I did to my previous alliance.
Many ask me, when in times that my previous two alliances were doing really well, what did I do special? And I told them pretty much everything. Sending out aid, recruiting and just working endlessly to set up tech deals and educate new nations. However, when I'm not there, all of it falls apart. And I guess that's what happened here.
Whenever I disband, I know it's not for a lack of trying rather than a lack of time or help. However that's what this game needs as a leader, time and help. Maybe I've learned my lesson and will try and work my way up in an alliance, that is if they trust me. Maybe I'll just get fed up and make my own AA, or maybe I'll just pack up my things and leave. But at least when I do, I'll know I came up short but not for a lack of trying.