I've had an epiphany. You see, I was basking in ignorance and have recently been enlightened. I have truly experienced revelation.
You see, here I was, fumbling around CN, bored, seriously considering letting my nation finally die. It's been in the works for several years. I've found no motivation. No desire. I feared that CN no longer offered anything to me. It is, as we have all noted, slowly dwindling into nothingness.
Then, TBC, as nothing more than a few loudmouths (Yes. I'm talking about me, so don't read this into my ongoing feud with Gibsonator21, a feud brewing since the CSN/DT spat about reps that I never got) spouting a desire to make something happen, declared chaos. It is a valid CB. I stand by that !@#$.
This is where the epiphany happened. I was lurking around, looking in the most half-assed possible manor, to sew chaos. A target, presented itself. It was easy. I declared for the reason that I would be bored before the end of it. It was a self-fulfilling prophecy. I lost interest. It was boring. I didn't finish it. I logged back in after like 5 days (somewhere around that mark) and found that our (the collective our) mutual acquaintance...
...one that it would be rude to call out, so, let's come up with a pseudonym...one that nobody could possibly name...lemme see...I was going to go with Junktard, but that is trademarked....how about Princess Tiny Hands...yeah, that'll do, Princess Tiny Hands....
Sorry, I got sidetracked.
Anyway, I found that Princess Tiny Hands doesn't give two !@#$% about his nation, but if a person points out the moronic dribble that rolls incessantly from he and his ilk, he loses his goddamned mind. I mean, like pubes on fire, running for water, falling just left of a can pineapple juice, loses his mind.
So my apology to the whole of CN. For several years, I have seriously missed out on the opportunity to use logic in the face of delusion. For several years, I have seriously missed out on what really bothers Princess Tiny Hands: Contradiction. My apologies to the entire community for missing what is so obvious. I'll endeavor to make it up to you.
Apologies in the sincerity of harmonious contradiction,
Smurthwaite, a humble servant of the peoples of CN, on who endeavors to bring a new motivation.
I am looking for the most interesting, provocative, or creative message.
I spent 3 years in CSN as the minister of $%&@, a diplomat, and all around pain in the ass.
I 993 days in NPL as the Warhead of Foreign Affairs, the Warhead of Communications, the Deputy Prime Minister, and Trium. Still an all around pain in the ass.
I have left NPL for reasons given to NPL membership.
So. Go ahead. Recruit me.