There are moments in life where we regret the actions we've taken, when we hurt those we know most. When you end up staring, wondering where did you go wrong at the emptiness at your hands, knowing you've cost yourself a friend. There are always these moments in life and I imagine I will have them again but the same mistake - when you don't learn from it, what kind of life is that?
I have never understood people who don't learn from their mistakes, doom themselves to repeat patterns to life, as
There are people who have different views in this game, there always will be. These last 3 years have brought ups and downs but taught me quite a bit. I am not friends with the world but that does not mean I don't learn things from people. I have learned quite a bit from this game, gained some friendships that will last quite a bit, I have met people from all over the world, I have met people that I am still close with and this game brings people together in ways I have not seen before.
I remember outpouring of support for a girl who had cancer 2 years ago, people flooded the alliance's forums, regardless of political alliance affiliation. She was struggling to live and was only 14 and played CN to keep ongoing.
I remember when Denzin died, even people who weren't that fond of his IC personality still mourned the loss.
For the mentality back then was it didn't matter if you were odds in politics, that RL is RL and there was a boundary.
Yet today, I see some support but it s
Starting to find that it is hard to believe that so much of my time has been spent on here, so much emotions are put into alliances - no matter what side or what political affiliation you wear, being a government member or active involves putting time and effort in. Times spent exchanged with so many different people regardless of whether you're IA, war, Finance, FA or trades, each part of is critical and involves time spent in an alliance.
I won't ever regret my time spent where I've walked i
I remember joining during the Q era, being and new to Foreign Affairs but SNOW was my first venture into being on my own while being part of TOOL. Something to run all on my own, I stayed throughout the years, becoming Council, deputy Hand of Foreign Affairs and then finally Hand of Foreign Affairs. I've seen much in my time in TOOL and watch myself approach 1000 days and wonder how many eras of Planet Bob will pass before I finally put down the torch?
It has still been painful to see all the f
You've all be stuck with me two years, I pity you. I am a youngin still but hehe. No, I have no plans to make a long speech, I am not anyone remarkable, some people know me, most don't.
I joined CN in March 18th, 2008 due to the fact that Grahamkeatley led a group called Solaris in CyberCitizens v1 and I joined that game. I have played the other game that is not to be named for six years and since so many people came over here from there, I stayed away until I ended up meeting Graham and coming
I do not know how to express in words what I express to others what I think. I am a senior this year and I had my life all planned out, laid out ahead in my path. If you pick a path and stick to it, it is the safe way but life does not go the way you plan it. You can plan every reaction and every plan and hide who you are and what you do from everyone else. You can plan out every detail in an effort to stay safe.
But if you plan out everything in order to save safe? If you don't take a chance i
The bold lines stand out on the paper,
Colored within and orderly,
So neat and organized, no mess, no disorder.
Yet a sinking feeling comes,
Something unavoidable is coming around the corner.
A whirlwind that cannot be stopped,
The marker screeches outside of the line.
The lines suddenly become blurred,
The path is suddenly no longer clear,
It is a mess, it is life,
It is a bunch of scribbles,
Circles, squares, triangles, hexagons,
A messed up picture, no longer organized,
Never Gave In
I could I say I love you but it'd be a lie,
I could say that dress you're wearing is pretty but it'd be a lie,
I could say that life is fair and that you'd be alright but that'd be a lie,
I could say that I really care what you think but that'd be a lie,
I could say that I give a damn about what grade you give but that'd be a lie.
There is so much more to do in this world,
Why should I change my expectations to match yours?
Why should I tell you something that you expect to
Judaism is almost something I can't describe, it is something it is tangible in a way and it isn't in another way. How do you describe something that seems so much a part of you that you don't distinguish as a different part of you?
A religion can be applied to whatever extent the believer believes in it. It is all in the mind, it is not something you can actually touch. There is no defined pretext for you. Yet how do I explain how I feel Jewish as a distinct and very real part of me?
When I w
Lurking beneath the waters is that danger you never wish to face,
It is waiting to reach out and strike you down faster than you can blink,
You walk side by side, trying to avoid it, but it follows you as a shadow,
It is always in the back of your mind, always there behind you,
It weighs down on you completely and entirely,
Something always waiting around the bend, waiting to strike,
And yet how do you keep the light to yourself?
How do you keep on chugging up that hill?
Knowing it is l
There come those moments where you realize you haven't really said thank you to those people you have befriended over the years, that you take many for granted and there are others you've never said the things you meant to.
DVD FinsterBaby, Friffon, Shah, Shan, and rest of IRON govt who I love- I've enjoyed this last year with you all. Not all of you were IRON govt when I became govt but all in all, you've made being HoFA worth it. I've seen so many friendships strengthened because of this. I'
I don't know what you call this war and I don't really care. There are many people fighting in this war, for what reasons I am not entirely sure of. I could call it The Confusion War if I really wanted to.
There are a few things I do know about this world and that is this: if you don't stick to your principles and what you stand for, you lose everything that you are. The politics on this world change like a shifting wind. It changes daily. There is no constant with it. If you don't choose your
You're my only cupcake,
You make me happpyyy when the the skies go gray,
You're my only cupcake,
You make me happy when I peck your frosting away,
You're my only only perfect cupcake...
*starts drumroll chorus*
You're my only cupcake *sings horribly off key*
Mia waddles in the arctic, singing happily to herself about her only cupcake when she suddenly finds Delta! The perfect only cupcake in the entire universe.
The penguin does the penguin dance of awesomeness, bird chirps
I've been here nearly two years and this place has taught me to see what I see in myself and others, that we're all human.
I see the same mistakes made over and over. And I always end up with the same question: how do we avoid making the same mistakes again? How many allowances are we allowed? Will we regret one choice that we made forever?
So many debates arise on OWF, so many twists, so many situations. Some have so many similarities and the only difference between them is the people is inv
I look back over a year of being TOOL's Hand of Foreign Affairs, I look back on being a member of TOOL for nearly 2 years, I look back on being government for nearly two years and I see how old TOOL is, with recently having celebrated our third anniversary.
I also look to my RL and I see the transition looming before my face, that transition one makes from teenagehood to college, to independence. It is looming in my face as well. I look back at all of it can can only see..
There is a story wai
This is completely OOC but just making me grumble about the hypocrisy of people in real life. I grew up in Minnesota until I moved to Virginia my sophomore year. Minnesota honestly doesn't have that many African Americans. It simply doesn't. My school had a grand total of 5 who stuck to themselves and travelled in their own group despite others being willing to be welcoming to them. It was a school of 1600, so not too small either.
I come to Virginia and my new school happens to African dominat
This war has caused a lot of turbulent feelings. That is fine to me, politics are something that has always gone on this game and always will regardless of who is in charge. This is a game based on that. But one thing I found in this war was who my friends truly were. I have been government of TOOL since a year on May 1st. I've gone from Council to Deputy Hand of Foreign Affairs to HoFA now.
But I've kept my friendships separate from my duties of TOOL and always will. How do you entangle one w
So where was I? Yeah this is nostalgia mostly. WET formed and then became SNOW eventually. We had what was considered a wonder internal team at that time. In May, my first Council term, I was posting mainly from my cell but I was highly active on my laptop so I didn't miss anything. I became successful as a diplomat fast because my approach to foreign affairs has always been this: I honestly want to get to know every person I talk to. I am curious and want to learn about the alliance. Why waste
I'm flying through waves of the past,
I'm flying through eras changed,
I'm flying through memories,
Cloudy and hazy,
Bright future clear and bright,
Flying faces by,
Good times spent on updates,
Flying memories of time spent by,
Different people, networks extended,
Hard to believe it has been a year already,
Time flies by.
On March 18th, 2008, I joined CyberNations. I once played CN a long time ago for 2 days in September of 2006. I left because I knew very little people and the game
Every single player in this game has their own history, their own perspective. I find it interesting how you can see different wars from different views. It is part of the complex tapestry of this community, how grudges shape wars, how politics become influenced by the past as well as how history is taught to those of us who come much later. All in all, I enjoy learning history from different standpoints. Doesn't mean I agree with those standpoints but learning and seeing why people do what they
I find it interesting in debates on CN forums that we know there are two types of: ingame fighting and the PR battle that one fights on CN. Because an alliance can't get anywhere without PR. They may win a war because of strength but if they lose the PR battle, it is unlikely people will back them up. Words do count in this game because part of it is diplomacy and part of diplomacy is the world image of your alliance.
I find it interesting that some announcements get trolled to death and others
I started a topic here in the boiler room on the topic of fear. Fear as I said is a protective instinct. We have basic emotions and instincts. Fear is one of them. A child burns themselves and they fear doing it again by association but then it becomes a broader spectrum when you apply it to emotions. An instinct that protects the organism when applied to emotions of humans changes meaning. It can actually inhibit a human being to the point of becoming a hermit and not being capable of interacti
It seemed strange today as I was cordial to people on OWF as it made me realize most people on here use sarcasm. It is the universal language of CN. And heck I don't mind it since I usually use it. However in an unusually positive mood towards everyone, I used a lack of sarcasm and it can be surprising when thoughtful posts are produced from it. Or maybe not so surprising.
I don't doubt I won't use sarcasm again but it is interesting how one can have a debate without the sarcasm and without the